rezeki

"Allah yang bagi rezeki. bukan manager kilang, bukan menteri, bukan kerajaan, bukan JKK, bukan orang lain.."

Orang cakap kalau nak pegi interviu kena pakai smart2, kena pakai tie baru dapat keje.

Orang cakap kalau nak pegi interviu kena cukur janggot ni sebab nampak selekeh janggot ni. (tapi ni sunnah, so better ikot sunnah dari protokol duniawi ni)

Orang cakap kalau dah panggil wat medical tu dah confirm dapat keje.

tapi yang orang selalu lupa rezeki ni kerja Allah. kita memang disuruh berusaha. yang menentukan semuanya tu Dia.

kalau Allah nak bagi sekelip mata je jadi. kalau Dia tak nak bagi, benda yang dah 99% confirm pon bole tak jadi.

Sesungguhnya memang Dia yang lebih tahu apa yang baik untuk hambaNya.

.quote.

-Marilyn Monroe-


to whom it may concern.
Allah beri sesuatu yang kamu perlu,bukan yang kamu mahu
lame,i know.
but this is very true,indeed.
because He knows us the best.

33 tahun

untuk seseorang itu mendaftar haji, dia perlu membuka akaun tabung haji dan dalam akaun tu ada RM1300. bila dah daftar, duit RM1300 tu dibekukan. so tak bole nak keluarkan lagi. untuk tahun 2011 ni, waktu menunggu giliran ialah 33tahun. jadi, untuk 2011, InsyaAllah dapat pegi tahun 2044.

perkara yang aku nak kongsi untuk difikirkan bersama ialah RM1300 dan tempoh 33 tahun. kita masih muda.duit pon xbanyak mana. mungkin jugak kita akan cakap "mana mampu RM1300. banyak tu."tapi dengan umur yang muda ni, berapa yang telah kita habiskan duit untuk perkara yang tak wajib. sedikit contoh:

1. komputer

2. telefon pintar@ipad@blackberry

3. kereta@motorsikal

4. yuran belajar universiti

5. percutian keluar negara@dalam negara

6. majlis perkahwinan yang menelan belanja puluhan ribu ringgit (bagi yang dah berkahwin)

kalau ditakdirkan kita mati pada usia yang muda ini, tanpa mendaftar haji. bagaimana nasib kita nanti?jika ditanya kenapa kita tidak menunaikan haji..takkan kita nak jawab tak mampu sedangkan kita ada benda2 yang kat list atas tu. kalau kita mendaftar, at least niat dah terpasang. kita hanya menunggu giliran yang bukan dalam kuasa kita.

untuk pergi haji aku tak tau berapa kos sebenar. tapi yang pasti kena ada lebih RM10000. yg part RM10000 ni mmg susah lah. tp InsyaAllah kalau kita berusaha simpan RM1 sehari, dalam 33tahun menunggu tu dah ada lebih RM12000. mungkin kita akan mampu untuk ke sana bila tiba giliran kita.

ini sekadar perkongsian untuk kita renungkan bersama. Menunaikan haji ni rukun Islam. so tak bole la kita nak amik ringan je kan benda macam ni.

muhasabah diri 2

Ya Rasulullah - Raihan

Alangkah indahnya hidup ini
Andai dapat kutatap wajahmu
Kan pasti mengalir air mataku
Kerna pancaran ketenanganmu

Alangkah indahnya hidup ini
Andai dapat kukucup tanganmu
Moga mengalir keberkatan dalam diriku
Untuk mengikut jejak langkahmu

Ya Rasulullah Ya Habiballah
Tak pernah kutatap wajahmu
Ya Rasulullah Ya Habiballah
Kami rindu padamu
Allahumma Solli Ala Muhammad
Ya Rabbi Solli Alaihi Wasallim

Alangkah indahnya hidup ini
Andai dapat kudakap dirimu
Tiada kata yang dapat aku ucapkan
Hanya tuhan saja yang tahu

Kutahu cintamu kepada umat
Ummati ummati

kutahu bimbangnya kau tentang kami
Syafaatkan kami
Alangkah indahnya hidup ini
Andai dapat kutatap wajahmu

Kan pasti mengalir air mataku
Kerna pancaran ketenanganmu
Ya Rasulullah Ya Habiballah
Terimalah kami sebagai umatmu
Ya Rasulullah Ya Habiballah
Kurniakanlah syafaatmu

sampai saat akhir Baginda masih UMMATI UMMATI.

kita sebagai umatnya pula bagaimana?

muhasabah diri

Raihan - Damba cintamu


Tuhanku ampunkanlah segala dosaku
Tuhanku maafkanlah kejahilan hambaMu

Ku sering melanggar laranganMu
Dalam sedar ataupun tidak
Ku sering meninggalkan suruhanMu
Walau sedar aku milikMu

Bilakah diri ini 'kan kembali
Kepada fitrah sebenar
Pagi ku ingat petang ku alpa
Begitulah silih berganti

Oh Tuhanku,
Kau pimpinlah diri ini
Yang mendamba CintaMu
Aku lemah aku jahil
Tanpa pimpinan dariMu

Ku sering berjanji di depanMu
Sering jua ku memungkiri
Ku pernah menangis keranaMu
Kemudian ketawa semula

Kau pengasih
Kau penyayang
Kau pengampun
Kepada hamba-hambaMu

Selangkah ku kepadaMu
Seribu langkah Kau padaku

Tuhan,
Diri ini tidak layak ke surgaMu
Tapi tidak pula aku sanggup ke nerakaMu

Kutakut kepadaMu
Ku mengharap jua padaMu
Mogaku 'kan selamat dunia akhirat
Seperti rasul dan sahabat

Seperti rasul dan sahabat

Lagu yang hebat untuk kaji diri kita

cukup dalam untuk mengalirkan airmata

lihat dimana diri kita

apakah priority@keutamaan dalam hidup yang sementara

.thanks for the memory.

i have the reputation of being easy going.
but deep inside,i expect to be respected.
do not shout because i am not deaf.
when u smashed the bowl,it felt like you smashed my heart.

and this is not the first time u have ever shouted at me.
u might forget.
i am still ur eldest.
thanks.

.3.

jika Allah menolong kamu maka tidak ada yang dapat mengalahkanmu, tetapi jika Allah  membiarkan kamu (tidak memberi pertolongan), maka siapa yang dapat menolongmu setelah itu? kerana itu, hendaklah kepada Allah sahaja orang mukmin bertawakal (3:160)

.2012 gift.

read:grief

2012 comes with loads of responsibilities.

scared and hectic,

turned to you,

asdfghjklcvbnm.

and as usual,

you sat and patiently listened to the screamingly uninteresting annoying me.

last but not least;

"it wont give you anything if you keep whining like this.berlapang dada.i promise to help you if it is possible"

ironically,

suddenly we got to know that you are transferred.

hey,this is unfair.

look.

this makes me even more scared.

who will spend hours listening and sitting next to this grumbler?

will i always be in your heart?

will i be able to know you more?

will you willingly share with me your days there?

will you ...? will i ...?

there are so many will mr.

... and the best of planners is Allah.

semoga rencana ini untuk yang baik2 sahaja, ya Tuhan.

.he is a bachelor no more.

pak ayiep.may Allah shower u and ur spouse rahmah and barakah throughout ur journey.

rasional

sekarang ni isu hudud byk dibincangkan. aku xpaham knp org takot dgn hudud ni. pemimpin2 negara pon takot. knp perlu takot kalau x buat salah?

aku slalu dgr yg org2 yg agak sengal cakap hudud ni kejam, xadil la. ok la. cuba kita letak org2 ni kat tempat mangsa. bkn kat tempat pencuri tp kat tempat mangsa. kau keje siang malam penat lelah nak kumpol duit beli barang. tetiba barang kau kena curi. kau dapat tangkap org tu. ada option utk kau pilih. kau nk org tu kne penjara sebulan dgn denda (lepas dia keluar nnt kau yakin ke dia dah x curi lg?) ke kau nk org tu kene potong tangan (high possibility dia xnk curi lg dah)?

Allah yang cipta kita. Dia tau apa yg baik dan ape yg buruk untuk kita semua. kalau xsokong pon jgn la lawan@mempermainkan hukum Allah ni.

tahun baru

1433H

samasama kita berubah dari jahat ke baik

dari baik ke lebih baik

semoga tahun baru ini menjadi sinar baru kepada kita

.random.

s:relax la

n:aku dah kecik hati ni

s:take it easy baby.kau letak expectation tinggi sangat.kau macam depress diri kau

n:yeke?

s:iye.kau nak semua benda jadi macam apa yang kau nak.kalau tak jadi pun kau cuma nampak satu jalan

keluar.

n:aku perasan.sebab aku rasa banyak sangat downs.hehe.so for once i really hope this thing will turn up fine

s:jangan cepat sangat buat assumption.experience dulu,then allow your mind to work

n:instinct aku selalu betul

s:hehe

n:and this time it tells me that things are not right

s:chillax

“sometimes you don't need a goal in life, you don't need to know the big picture. you just need to know what you're going to do next!”

really ?

“...nothing ever happens quickly (except when it does). Nothing is ever, ever easy (except when it is). And, most of all, nothing ever goes perfectly according to plan (except in the movies).”

okay.time to embrace the reality.this sucks man

When she is happy, she can't stop talking, when she is sad she doesn't say a word.

.sesudah setahun.

after a year - with different companion,yet somehow it still smells the same.

... oh,still the same old jeans too.

2010

2011

"when we feel too comfortable with someone, we tend to say whatever we have in our minds to that someone. and later when we realize that we actually know that person just on surface, we'll regret whatever we've uttered" (its aqel's i guess)

so please learn to keep things deep deep deep inside you if this is the only way to save the heart

hello karipap n cheeseburger.im back.hopefully this comeback is constant.its not too late to say hello right?

.empty.

"To fake it is to stand guard over emptiness"

emptiness is overwhelming her,

acting as if nothing happens.

cake+coffee+companion=heaven.

and to someone u know who u are,i miss jalan2 malam2 tengok2 makan2 cakap2 gaduh2

.a new chapter.

look,i love you with all my heart.semoga muka surat paling akhir kisah kita yang indah2 sahaja.kalau diizin Tuhan dan disudikan awak,saya mahu di sisi awak sampai saya mati.

30 31 1

30 ogos 2011- Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

31 ogos 2011- Selamat menyambut kemerdekaan negara

1 September 2011- Transfer Window closed. Chelsea got Meireles. Looking forward to the new line up after this. Hopefully it will look like this:

cech

bosingwa/ivanovic david luiz terry cole

ramires

meireles lampard

sturridge mata

torres/drogba

hope for the best..

minggu bola

minggu yang memenatkan..tapi mmg berbaloi..aku mmg xmampu nk g stamford bridge tgk chelsea main..bila diorg datang sini mmg nice la kan..21 julai 2011 dapat jugak aku tgk chelsea main dpn mata aku..walaupon game kurang menarik, yg pnting ni pengalaman dapat tgk diorg main live..

forward seminggu, game malaysia singapore 2nd leg Bukit Jalil. 26 julai proses mendapatkan tiket mmg rabak.berator panjang tiket abis.mmg menyirap.tp esk masih ada. 27 julai 8pagi bergerak mencarik tiket. datang awal pon berator gak.mmg panas. yg pntg 10pagi tiket dah ada kat tangan. perasaan berjaya dapat tiket tu mmg xterkata. rasa gembira, bangga, terharu bercampor baur.

28 julai 2011 hari perlawanan.rakan2 mengambil half day dgn gagah bergerak ke bukit jalil.semangat berkobar2 dgn harapan mng 3-0. time game mmg all out.sorak mcm xingt ape.time malaysia goal, feeling tu mmg xkn dapat kalau tgk kat tv je.berbaloi berator berjam2 nk dapatkan tiket.

tp apakan daya, malaysia hanya seri dgn team singapurapurayangpenuhdenganimport.walaupun kalah, supporter tetap menunjukkan sokongan padu untuk team malaysia.mmg perasaan yg mengharukan lepas game tu.

lpas game mmg lepak abis.kepala pening badan sengal telinga berdesing. tp kalau suro pegi lagi mmg aku pegi.

to aqil kaknor ateh undan arip pesa don abe jeton apip juon, thanks for the memories my friends..

.just so u know.

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

sumpah,rasa mahu mati.

.rasa.

satu rasa halus menyelinap.
aku dapat rasa.
infatuation mungkin.
cepat2 pergi.

.ngobrol.

dia:bodohla nak berarak2.membazir masa je.
aku:tengok tuntutan.i rasa relevant.
dia:yes,tuntutan relevant tapi cara tak relevant.
aku:habis tu ada cara lain ke?
dia:tak ada.
*senyap*


semua orang ada cara berfikir masing2.dan tak salah sebagai manusia kita hormati cara orang berfikir.setiap seseorang dan perlakuan daripada dia ada sebab.

mungkin pada kita bodoh tapi tidak pada dia.mungkin juga pada seorang budak tingkatan dua menggedik itu comel,tapi pada orang lain memualkan.dia ada sebab,dia menggedik sebab dia mahu tarik perhatian cikgu kacak.kalau dia tak gedik cikgu itu sedar tak kewujudan dia?

kesimpulannya,kalau suka timbangkan buruk baik.kalau tak suka jangan dicemuh2 sebab kita tak tahu apa yang akan berlaku esok.itu rahsia Tuhan.Dia simpan kejap.

There is a light that never goes out

Take me out tonight
Where there's music and there's people
And they're young and alive
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I haven't got one
Anymore

Take me out tonight
Because I want to see people and I Want to see life
Driving in your car
Oh, please don't drop me home
Because it's not my home, it's their Home,
and I'm welcome no more

And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine

Take me out tonight

Take me anywhere, I don't care I don't care, I don't care
And in the darkened underpass I thought Oh God, my chance has come at last
(But then a strange fear gripped me and I Just couldn't ask)

Take me out tonight
Oh, take me anywhere,
I don't care I don't care, I don't care
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I haven't got one, da ...Oh,
I haven't got one

And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine

Oh, There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out
There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out

...

suddenly, i like this song...

someone like you - adele

these are some of the lyrics..

Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

beautiful isn't it..

.rahasia Tuhan.

dedicated to isyRRad.haha.

be strong dude!aja!

putih hati yang sedang ternodai
membukakan seluruh mata dan hati
terhempas ke dalam jurang yang tinggi
dalam gelapnya hati menghukum diri

coba untuk menentukan
teka-teki kehidupan
Tuhankan beri jawaban
untuk semua yang telah terjadi
biarkan waktu yang menghakimi

yakinlah di balik semua cobaan
tersimpan rahasia Tuhan yang tak terungkapkan
janganlah menyalahkan keadaan
yang kini terjadi sepenuhnya ku serahkan padaMu

ost dalam mihrab cinta

yours truly,

nadiRRa

moving on

i'm trying the best i can

not trying to forget you

because i know i can't

i'm trying just to be normal again

i don't know what the future holds

for the both of us

i know it has been difficult

for you and me

time will tell

fate will decide

until then

be good

be healthy

i don't know what i'm doing

life 2

aku makin rasa kosong...

break up still sucks...

life

aku rasa kosong...

break up sucks...

.stumble.

"i feel embittered and completely stumped"

whenever i feel severely disabled,i will try to remember you.

"He is always there.listening and looking upon you.do your best.let Him take care the rest.it is okay if you do not get what you are supposed to get now because one day He will give whatever is yours. may be not to you,but to your loved ones.be sincere okay,it is damn difficult in everything you do."

Heaps of appreciation Mrs. Perminder.

.mimpi.

lately aku selalu mimpi. mimpi yang ada muka yg aku xnak jumpa even in reality.choi!

pulak tu,mimpi yang rasa gila real.

penat weh...bangun fikir apa relevancenye watak2 itu...lepas tu tak puas hati.

bagila jumpa so ji sub ke...

.hiatus.

pause.silence.okay.

"no wonder manusia ada 1 nyawa.sebab kalau ada 9 nyawa macam kucing, ramai yang xboleh bear"




'the forgotten'---i really want you.stay quietly on the shelf.wait for me.will u?am making a brilliant effort of asking around my brothers to hand you to me as a birthday gift.hoho.

o captain my captain

It has been weeks I finished my cert studies. It also means that i had been jobless for weeks. being jobless has its pros and cons.

cons - weight gained

- no money

- parents pressure to get job

pros - lot of free time

- free to do anything

- download and watch movies a lot

due to boredom being jobless, i decided to download movies. the problem was i didnt know which movie to choose. luckily, there were the oscar nominees. so, i went for 127 hours and the fighter. indeed those movies were oscar worthy. there was a scene in 127 hours where aron stalton cut off his own hand. that scene was crazy. i could not imagine how he dealt with that pain.

i watched 5 seasons of how i met yout mother in less than 5 days. it was fun. then i remembered there was one movie that i had always wanted to watch. dead poet society. for me it was one of my favorites of all time.

favorite of all time

1. the shawshank redemption

2. the pursuit of happyness

3. lord of the rings

4. harry potters

5. pirates of the caribbeans

6. good will hunting

7. forrest gump

8. the green mile

9. dead poet society

these are just some of my favorites. and to end this entry, a poem by robert frost which i learnt during form 4 or 5 i cant remember. there were quotes of this poem in dead poet society.. the road not taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim

Because it was grassy and wanted wear,

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I marked the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

.lost in translation.

its been a long time since i last updated this blog.

am now coping in a new world.most of the time missing my good old days.
since i was small,transition is something hard to me and it takes me some time to familiarize myself with a new place.

here,everything seems blurred.
i am like an actress who play a stupid idiot moronic woman and she got lost in a thick jungle.

but i know that i have an extremely long way to go and i am not allowed to have the intention of looking back and change my decision. i am standing here because i have chosen to be what i am now.


nonetheless,
i always see colours when i enter my class and spend time with my dearest students.
i wish they can accept me the way i am and i will always be sincere in giving the best of me as their teacher.

okay,
my english has deteriorated.vocabulary gone,grammar here and there.
i need to read more as i speak less.

am anxious to pursue studies but don't know when.
really want to get married to someone i love very much but don't know when. or maybe forever we won't be together. haha.
but there is always hope right?


for the time being,
really need to have faith in myself that everything is going to be alright. it is just a matter of successfully adjusting myself in this strange environment.
hello mr confidence.i beseech,please come.
blurry merry cherry..,please leave me for a while.huhu.

all the time in this place, i wish to keep myself in blissful ignorance because i am here for my babies.

بولا ايت بولت

چيلسي كاله. چوبا لاڬي ماس دڤن. اكو تتڤ سوكوڠ كاله اتاو منڠ

چلسي چلسي چلسي

سوسه اونتوق منوليس ڤركاتان اورڠ ڤوتيه دالم جاوي ني. ايجأن دان بوڽي تق سام. يڠ ڤنتيڠ فرنندو توريس دان داۏيد لوءيز اياله ڤماين چلسي سكارڠ

ايوه باڠون چلسي

ساي سايڠ بڠسا ساي

تيبا-تيبا اكو تراس نق منوليس دان ممباچ توليسن جاوي. ڤميمڤين-ڤميمڤين مليسيا سموا سيبوق چاكڤ ڤاسل سايڠ بڠسا، تاڤي توليسن اورڠ ملايو تق نق سايڠ، تق نق جاڬ. بڠسا لاين سموا اد توليسن سنديري. چينا، اينديا، جيڤون، كوريا. اورڠ ملايو ڤرلو ڤليهارا توليسن جاوي كالاو بتول سايڠكن بڠسا

جادي، اونتوق ڤرمولأن مڠهيدوڤكن توليسن جاوي ني، اكو اكن چوبا بوات انتري دالم توليسن جاوي مينيموم تيڬ كالي

تقكن ملايو هيلڠ د دنيا