.ma...

ma...
nak balik.
nak peluk.
nak cium.
nak tatap.
nak pangku.
nak borak.
nak gelak.
nak dengar.

ok.
aku homesick gila yang tak ada tahap.
apa jadi pun weeekend ni kena balik.
serious.


* boleh ke aku jadi emak yang macam mama?suka bebel,marah,kadang2 pening2 yang tak faham.but still she is the most wonderful person.bual dengan mama buat aku rasa semangat,rasa lapang. aku tak boleh jauh dengan mama.encik yang sortkan posting.boleh tak...saya nak mengajar di batu pahat?tolong......

.oit.

relief experiences.sebab masa relief je boleh cakap bm dengan aman.hahaha.

situation a:
student a: kau bodoh eh?
aku: ape bodoh2? bodoh2... *sambil bulatkan mata*
student b: weh korang, respect la...
student c: korang2, dalam class teacher kita xboleh cakap bodoh. kite kene cakap stupid.
aku: speechless *nak tergelak*
after a few minutes, "stupid2...cakap lagi, kena."

situation b:
aku: class, low down your voice *sambil bulatkan mata*
student a: teacher2, mata teacher macam mak lampir. teacher sepupu die eh?
aku: haah. bising lagi teacher jadi mak lampir nanti *terlepas gelak.nasib baik boleh control*

situation c:
aku bagi gambar new zealand aku.
lupa nak tarik satu gambar in which mat saleh pegang bahu aku.
suddenly,
student a (a boy): ee teacher, no touch2 dengan lelaki la... haram.
aku macam nak pengsan!tapi kemachoan kena jaga. "you cannot do this. berdosa. teacher terpaksa... mat saleh xtau haram macam mana. susah teacher nak terangkan..."
wahaha! lepas tu aku terus blah. rasa nak cari paper bag. masukkan muka kat dalam tu.



eac of you guys is the reason why teacher wants to do my best.thanks a lot.

.tebabom.

serious. tak payah kecoh sangat sebab engkau tak adalah besar sangat. masa oh masa. terbanglah cepat2. aku semakin suffocated. malaysia oh malaysia. kenapa seniority sangat digembar-gemburkan? kau ada kroni, kau jaja cerita orang, kau gelak2kan orang, kau buat orang rasa kecil.tolonglah... ianya sangat2 menjengkelkan.

.passion.

"Nadiah, you should feel lucky because they love you. they imitate and follow you. they even spoke in English with their friends."

"they may not be rich but they have a lot of love to give."

yes i am sir. I am very lucky to have 64 of them.
it is such a blessing for me to be with them.

even though they do not know how to construct sentences, do not understand most of my words, do not know what is Shrek, i feel lucky to have them. to be loved by them.

being with them is tiring as i have to shout for 1 hour and 10 minutes but it is worthwhile watching them nodding their heads and saying oooh...macam tu rupenye. i thank them for their honesty. when i ask who does not understand me? almost all raise their hands up.

this is what i have been searching for throughout almost 5 years. being with them reminds me back of my real intention to be what i am today.

dear God, i beseech... please grant me passion and excitement in pursuing my career despite all hatred and exhaustion and please, take care of their heart. let them be pure forever. give them strength to live their life among cruel people.



it just i think i need a room on my own.hahaha.gila kera sumbang.

.lelah.

praktikum.
aku dari kecil lagi teringin masuk dalam bidang ni.
baru seminggu aku praktikum aku tak sabar gila nak pencen.
sangat pesimis.aku tahu.
tapi penat weh...tengok,dengar dan layan mereka yang rasa besar sangat.
tapi aku sayang dengan budak2.



-semoga kamu semua gembira selalu dan diberkati-